Although I have paid my effort on study, it seems like it doesn’t move a little. Because every time when I get my result, my mark is lower than my classmates certainly, and it is not just a little distance. With time, about few weeks after, the situation didn’t change any more. I don’t know the problem where it is, I just know studying hard continually and blindly.

Ever, I considered to talk to my roommates, but they are always busy. Sometimes, I want to find a person to talk to, and yet I can’t find a suitable one. Although every thing as if a buskined going, I never sad or woeful. It is because of I know how I am grieved, I still have to live on earth. Moreover, there is no anything will be changed by my sad. Also, I need growth with isolation, it will make me brave.

Up to now, I believe there is lot of people having like experience as me. Despite I don’t know how they do; I trust they also cross themselves. So, I need to overcome myself, however it is difficult. Furthermore, I have had no excuse to escape any inevitable fact since I owned my memory. Although this is not a life which I am looking for, I can’t turn back, because there is no way for me turning back. Everyone is grown by various frustration, everyone is also standing on it and going to their achievement. Therefore, it strengthens my confidence to study constantly.

In future, I don’t know how I will be, because there are plenty of possibility will happen. Anyway, I hope I can do anything without regret. I deeply believe there is no regretful value, if you have tired your hard and paid your heart on everything. No one can preview their life, no one can predict their road, everyone only know they should cope with fate, me too.